As you see I am back again. This time I am falling apart again and this time I have no one to support me and help me. I have going into a crisis. Family crisis, all I need to leave from here. To travel aboard, to feel free and protected. I feel hurt everyday. I cry every single day, I can't take it anymore. I need to someone to rescue me. Like really rescue me from here. If god knows my path, I hope he can lead me to this path way. To let me feel free like bird, like an angel. I also want to save others like me, saving people who are in pain, who suffered by abusive families and who want to feel free. I want to take them away from the pain they have but first I want to save myself, stay patient for time being, fighting for what I want, reaching the dream, and the future I want to hold in my hands.
Also there is something I would like to state, to explain and to express my feeling. I know my parents gave me everything I need which money and things. But they haven't gave me happiness. They never once made me feel better, or even supported on what I do. They just control me. I understand I should be thankful but sometimes we can take it any longer, we need time to be with ourself. To feel safe and protected. To go and fun. To enjoy life the way we want for once. None of this i have. I can't even go out with friend, or even hang with. I can even go to places I want. I don't understand why. I feel trapped, like I am in a ceil. When you go to the zoo, even animals wants to feel free, to feel save and protected, but I don't understand why parents cage their daughters. Just because they are girls. Just because we have to follow the tradition. why don't they be different, why care so much on our reputation, why lie when were hurt. why do we accept pain, when we have the way for our path, the path for happiness. The path for being successful, the path for being independent, the path for being responsible...knowing what we want. why stop ourself from what we want to reach or become. All I want to do, is to travel aboard, to feel free, to breathe fresh air....I want to be someone I always want to be. I hope and pray for someone to rescue me, to protect me and to take me away from evil.
Also there is something I would like to state, to explain and to express my feeling. I know my parents gave me everything I need which money and things. But they haven't gave me happiness. They never once made me feel better, or even supported on what I do. They just control me. I understand I should be thankful but sometimes we can take it any longer, we need time to be with ourself. To feel safe and protected. To go and fun. To enjoy life the way we want for once. None of this i have. I can't even go out with friend, or even hang with. I can even go to places I want. I don't understand why. I feel trapped, like I am in a ceil. When you go to the zoo, even animals wants to feel free, to feel save and protected, but I don't understand why parents cage their daughters. Just because they are girls. Just because we have to follow the tradition. why don't they be different, why care so much on our reputation, why lie when were hurt. why do we accept pain, when we have the way for our path, the path for happiness. The path for being successful, the path for being independent, the path for being responsible...knowing what we want. why stop ourself from what we want to reach or become. All I want to do, is to travel aboard, to feel free, to breathe fresh air....I want to be someone I always want to be. I hope and pray for someone to rescue me, to protect me and to take me away from evil.
